Odd title for this post perhaps, but that’s pretty much how I feel right now.

I know every one reaches a point in their life, possibly MANY times, where they go through things in their head and wonder what the $*amp;@ is going on. I’ve hit that point a ton of times in the past couple of years. You go through life relatively well and you believe you’ve made the right choices. Well, at least the right choices with what things have been brought onto you during your life and it seems like you have a subtle grasp on things going on that you can deal with.

You eventually come to, I guess I could call it an “impasse,” where you just don’t know what to think or do because the logic behind the whole ordeal doesn’t make a lick of sense. WHY is it that people get onto you about what you’re doing in your life when they either don’t understand your own personal reasons for doing it or that you’re the one causing the issues in your own life in the first place. Who are THEY to tell you how to live your life or sit there and tell you what you’re doing wrong when it’s NOT THEIR LIFE?

That’s actually rather easy to answer. People project their own feelings into other people’s unfortunate mishaps in life. It’s a way for them to show you that they’re better because they think that pointing out flaws, that, mind you, are in THEIR head, and act like their life is better by comparison. Is their life really better or are they not saying anything to you about their life and just jump down YOUR throat? Its easy for ignorant people to constantly batter others verbally because they think they’re right and you’re wrong. ALL THE TIME.

You reach a point where you’ve heard the same old crap over and over, which doesn’t make any sense for it to be said anyway, and you ponder the reason why you have anything to do with these people. Why do you deserve this oppressive behavior from them? Why is it when you do all the work, all they can think about is how crappy of a job you’re doing and tell you exactly why they think its crappy. Oddly enough, they don’t do squat to help you or offer any type of helpful advice, like you’d take it from someone like that anyway. Sure I could sit there and badger someone into the ground from my skewed, closed-minded point of view, but I wouldn’t do that because it doesn’t help either party.

As an example: Say someone is taking care of a house and 4-5 kids by themselves, despite the fact that someone else lives with them, and is always making sure they the kids are taken care of by means of food, clothes, etc. This is basically their full-time job and they hope they’re doing a relatively good job as all the needs are being met and beyond that. In comes a voice of ignorance where THEY think that this person does a HORRIBLE job and doesn’t do ANYTHING but sit around and do a crappy job of taking care of everything. They’re like poison trying to infect others to make them think the same way. What’s sad is that the other people actually believe it.

With this being the case, as it has happened more than once, what is left for the caretaker to do? Continue to stay to constantly be belittled as lazy and has a poor work ethic? The REALITY is that the caretaker has done everything in their power to make things good for everyone and then some. They aren’t treated with the dignity they deserve or the respect that should be commonplace. Who would want to live that way?

It should be a blaring siren and a blinding light as a sign that means to get the hell out of there as soon as possible. Not necessarily to cut ties, but to get away from a horrible situation where blame is passed on to the person who does the most work and, apparently, the easiest one to put shortcomings and problems of everyone else onto. This person is basically a scapegoat to the ones who REALLY have the problems and can’t admit it to themselves and try to see what’s really happening and how they act toward this individual. Maybe being away from everything and everyone will jog the ignorant people’s minds to realize, FINALLY, that the one they should be praising and respecting isn’t themselves, but the one who has always been there for them and has tried their hardest to make the best of an unfortunate situation and turn of events.

Here’s to those who feel underappreciated and never recognized where you should be. Hard workers deserve credit and respect. The only place we feel good is by ourselves because we are an audience of one and because of that, no one can never put us down. We push on and do the best we can with what we have. That, in and of itself, is a success and we should be proud. Stand tall and hold your heads high. That is all.

I have been writing up a business plan for the past couple of days on the SBA website and until you’re done, you can’t save it to a document. Well, I should have went with my gut instinct and copy and pasted what I wrote into a Word document just in case.

Apparently, one of my programs on my laptop decided to shut the computer down, which I haven’t done and have always put it in Hibernate to save my SBA stuff, and I lost everything I wrote. What’s even better is that Internet Explorer doesn’t even remember me going to the SBA site in its History. So, yeah, that’s a definite PLUS to having IE9.

Well, I’m going to just use the SBA site as a guide and write everything in Word and then paste it onto the site. I thought our technology is supposed to get better and not dumber. That’ll be another rant I write up sometime later. I’m just really aggravated write now with me losing my stuff that I don’t know if I’ll be able to remember what I wrote. No one usually remembers that either. I’m meant to suffer it this week I guess. So be it. I’ll just be busy writing later.

Until next time…